• Astrological Autoethnography,  Personal Reflections

    Anhedonia, Self-Sabotaging, & Venus’ Retrograde Journey through Scorpio

    An Update

    The last time I wrote a post was October 3rd, 2018. I told readers to look out for the upcoming Venus rx cosmic travel guide which would be available in the next couple days… and then nothing. I had worked for days on it and got about 40 pages done with lots of explanations and teaching diagrams, and then… was overcome by anxiety and self-doubt about the value of what I wanted to communicate.

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    Venus in Scorpio & the Power of Womxn’s Anger :: Cosmic Weather Forecast for October 1st – 7th

    Good evening! I’ve been busy behind the scenes of Lilith Rebellion, working on upgrading the structural foundations of my website.

    I recently realized that I launched Lilith Rebellion (unintentionally) at the time of the inferior conjunction of Venus and the Sun, during Venus’ last retrograde period in the spring of 2017. The inferior conjunction is considered to be the birth place of each 584-day Venus Synodic cycle.

    Lilith Rebellion began as a personal blog; an outlet for my love of astrology and the angst of my Saturn Return. However, it has gradually become… something else. I’m not entirely sure where it is headed, but as our current Venus cycle begins to wrap up, it has become clear to me that my online platforms and branding needed an upgrade.

    We are just about to birth another Venus Synodic Cycle – beginning on October 26th when Venus passes through a conjunction with the Sun during Venus’ retrograde, which starts this FRIDAY. How exciting! Truly, I think it is, even though I don’t expect this Scorpionic Venusian deep dive to be easy.

    Aside from Venus stationing retrograde on FRIDAY, we have Mercury squaring Pluto today along with the third quarter moon in Cancer (TUESDAY), Jupiter clearing its post-retrograde shadow in Scorpio on SATURDAY, and the Sun conjunct Ceres in Libra on SUNDAY.

    TUESDAY’s Mercury square to Pluto punctuates Pluto’s direct station this past weekend. Our perception of reality, our thought processes, and our conversations with others, may be intense, triggering, defensive, suspicious, paranoid, investigative, wrestling with heavy topics, or dwelling obsessively on a particular fear or concern. We may also be braving fears and inhibitions to bring something hidden into the light, or we could be accessing deeper strengths and energetic resources to apply our selves to a busy Mercurial task. Whatever it may be, words received, exchanged, or processed, have an extra layer of gravity and meaning today.

    The third quarter moon in Cancer squaring the Sun in Libra, taps into our emotional need for safety as it prompts us to prioritize relationships that support us, as well as acts of self-care that renew us, as we head into the dark moon time.

    Aside from today’s aspects, Venus stationing retrograde really steals the show this week. And yet, you’ve probably already begun to receive clues as to the retrograde’s key themes throughout the preceding month of September as Venus traversed her pre-retrograde territory.

    I live in Canada and I tend to be at arm’s distance from US news, especially since closing a few of my personal social media accounts a while ago. When I wrote my Monday forecast last week, highlighting anger and frustration (for the Aries Full Moon square to Saturn), I wasn’t really aware of the Kavanaugh hearing and I wasn’t anticipating the surge of womxn’s frustration and anger which rushed to the surface, as captured in many news headlines. Womxn’s anger was certainly palpable last week, and understandably so.

    And yet this public conversation or focus on womxn’s anger began earlier in the month, on September 8th, when tennis star Serena Williams visibly and verbally expressed her frustration on court in response to a dispute with the chair umpire over whether or not she had been receiving coaching from the sidelines.

    Williams was then further ‘punished’ for her expression of anger and calling the umpire out for sexism, with additional penalties that lost her the game. Many were quick to point out the gendered double standard and that a male tennis player would not have been penalized in the same way.

    Tennis champion Billie Jean King tweeted the following in support of Serena Williams:

    When a woman is emotional, she’s “hysterical” and she’s penalized for it. When a man does the same, he’s “outspoken” & and there are no repercussions. Thank you, @serenawilliams, for calling out this double standard. More voices are needed to do the same.”

    The day of Williams’ game on September 8th, Venus (feminine, yin, harmony, peace) was squaring Mars (masculine, yang, anger, confrontation) at the 29th crisis degree of Libra and Capricorn, respectively. Venus was exactly conjunct Williams’ natal Mercury (communication) as it perfected its square to Mars!

    This Venus-Mars dynamic is one that will repeat several more times in the coming months. It is one of the major aspects of this Venus retrograde.

    Serena Williams is strongly venusian with a 7th house Venus as both her chart ruler (i.e., the ruler of her Taurus ascendant) and the dispositor of her many Libra planets including her Sun (Venus rules both Taurus and Libra).

    Mars energy is also really strong in her chart, with her natal Mars tightly squaring her natal Venus (the same aspect that was occurring globally on the day of the match) and Venus placed in Scorpio – a Mars-ruled sign (the same sign where the retrograde will begin). It’s common to see a strong Mars signature among athletes and competitors.

    Williams boldly confronted the umpire (Mars), but she also comforted and supported her opponent Naomi Osaka (Venus) as the crowd booed Osaka in protest of Williams losing due to the penalties. In true Libra form, Williams told the crowd: “Let’s give everyone the credit where credit’s due and let’s not boo anymore,” as she hugged Osaka.

    This Venus retrograde will likely be a very important one for Serena Williams. I think this is quite evident already.

    Three days ago Williams said she stepped out of her comfort zone to sing “I Touch Myself” topless, with her hands covering her breasts for Breast Cancer Awareness Month (this is very Venus in Scorpio on multiple levels).

    Furthermore, it was also recently announced that Williams has designed another handbag (Venus) to support a fundraiser for Purple Purse (a non-profit that helps survivors through financial empowerment), in honour of October also being domestic violence awareness month (Scorpio – awareness of humanities’ shadow side).

    She says, “I will continue to talk about uncomfortable topics [Scorpio] in order to make change.”

    Venus is still in her anticipatory shadow and hasn’t even stationed retrograde yet! I wonder what else this season holds for Serena Williams.

     

    A few days after the match between Williams and Osaka, I read an article titled: Of course Serena Williams was angry’: writer Soraya Chemaly on why women should unleash their rage”It turns out that Soraya Chemaly had just published a book called Rage Becomes Her: The Power of Women’s Angeronly three days following Williams’ public expression of anger (within Venus’ pre-retrograde shadow period).

    And then I realized that there were two other books about womxn’s anger that would soon be released on October 2nd and November 13th. Because of their similar topic and publication timing, many book review articles even feature two or three of them together. I think it is somewhat rare to have three books about womxn’s anger being published within about two months of each other?? And all within range of Venus’ pre-rx shadow and retrograde?

    The second book is being released today beneath the Mercury-Pluto square – Good and Mad, the Revolutionary Power of Women’s Anger, by Rebecca Traister. The third book, Fed Up: Emotional Labour, Women and the Way Forward, will come out on November 13th.

    I suspect that womxn’s anger and the related dynamics of the repeated Venus-Mars aspects, will continue to be a major theme of Venus’ retrograde in the Mars-ruled sign of Scorpio. These books would probably make for good Venus Rx reading material 🙂

    When Jupiter entered Scorpio on October 10th, 2017, Harvey Weinstein’s history of assaulting women had just publicly surfaced. The widespread use of the #MeToo hashtag quickly followed on October 15th, accompanying a deluge of (mostly) womxn sharing their stories of sexual assault and harassment – which then became the truth-telling “#MeToo movement“.

    Now Venus has joined Jupiter in Scorpio, preparing to station retrograde just as Jupiter clears its retrograde shadow. Venus’ retrograde period will encompass Jupiter’s departure from Scorpio into Sagittarius on November 8th, 2018. The Jupiter in Scorpio correlations may be getting re-activated by Venus’ transit through Scorpio as a similar hashtag leapt into widespread use on September 21st in response to the Kavanaugh hearing and Trump’s tweet challenging the truth of Dr. Ford’s testimony – #WhyIDidn’tReport.

    As a woman with my own #MeToo and #WhyIDidn’tReport stories, I’ve had my own journey with owning my anger (a journey I’m still on). I think giving yourself permission to experience anger and allowing it to move through you, is really vital for healing and well-being (especially for those who are prone to repressing it).

    Venus in Scorpio reminds me of Lilith who was kicked out of the Garden of Eden after refusing to be subordinate to Adam. Lilith is present when our freedom-seeking instincts come back to life and rage against oppression. Lilith’s Rebellion is about throwing off chains, regardless of how “not nice”, “unlikeable” and “disruptive” it may be.

    And yet I’ve also had moments where I’ve been triggered and verbally lashed out in anger, really hurting those who didn’t deserve to experience my rage. I’m sure most people can think of times when anger was expressed with destructive outcomes.

    Anger, as a form of Mars energy, is a complex emotion with many dimensions of causation and expression. It may be worth reflecting on these different dimensions of anger as Venus undertakes her journey, pivoting while holding strong the tension with Mars.

    Use anger as a catalyst for change. Venus in Scorpio loves alchemy. Metabolize your beautiful fierce anger through grounded action (+ healing, laughter & self-care).

     

     

    The weekend closes with a conjunction between the Sun and nurturing Ceres in the relational sign of Libra – take care of each other and honour your death & rebirth cycles together ❤

     


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    The Anatomy of a Sink Hole :: Cosmic Weather Forecast for September 24th – 30th

    It’s a Full Moon day, on a Monday, the Moon’s day!

    In Aries, this Full Moon is hot fire, ready to lunge if something gets in its way… like Saturn. Or Chiron. Or perhaps that’s enough of a deterrent to hem it in temporarily.

    For additional insight into what it might look like for the Full Moon to encounter Saturn, you can check out my previous blog post written on the weekend (scroll past the Virgo post to reach Saturn stuff).

    When I see challenging combinations of Moon, Mars, and Saturn in a birth chart (or some of these planets along with the involvement of Cancer, Aries, Scorpio, Capricorn or Pluto in certain configurations), there’s often some early difficulty with expressing and processing the energy of anger. It’s all wound up inside; churning in the basement of the psyche and possibly unleashing erratically when the controlled tension becomes too much to bear… or expressing itself through inflammatory symptoms of physical discomfort.

  • Cosmic Weather Bulletins,  Learn Astrology,  Personal Reflections

    PSA : Virgo is one of the MUTABLE signs (+ diary entries from a Saturnian poster child)

    Virgo Season is almost over! And so is the summer (for those in the Northern hemisphere). The September equinox arrives late on Saturday as the Sun crosses the threshold of 0 degrees Libra; aligning with the equator and splitting the day and night into two equal halves. We may be busy bees Friday and Saturday, getting some work wrapped up as the Sun and Mercury sit at the last degree of Virgo – like me, trying to squeeze in one last Virgo post that I’ve had on my heart to share before the Sun makes its exit.

    This is a post where I want to clear up some misconceptions and stereotypes about the essence of Virgo, the only mutable earth sign. Virgo is one of the mutable signs along with Pisces (water), Gemini (air), and Sagittarius (Fire).

    The 12 zodiac signs are divided into four elements (water, earth, air and fire), and they are also divided into three qualities (also called modalities or sign quadruplicities). This means that we have three signs belonging to each element and four signs belonging to each quality…

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    WAKE UP!!! Now is the Time :: Cosmic Weather Forecast for September 17th – 23rd

    This afternoon someone walked into the business of someone I know, under orders of a landlord, to change the locks on the door because they were behind on rent.

    They knew that their business (which is a progressive community-oriented Aquarian initiative) had to be out of the building anyway, by the end of September, but this was certainly a jarring surprise. On one hand, maybe it was better to get the move over now if they could make the case for a grace period to relocate all the gear and many other items held in the space. This would admittedly free them up for the many other responsibilities they have on their plate for this month, and yet they weren’t really prepared to incorporate this thorny situation into this week’s busy schedule.

    On the plus side, they pulled off a much-anticipated, high-pressure business event this past weekend with resounding success – their most impressive event yet.

    Has anyone had any similar major breakdowns or breakthroughs this week?

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    New Moon in Virgo & Playing with Giants :: Cosmic Weather Forecast for September 10th – 16th

    There are some major outer planet aspects occurring and being sustained this week. There’s a continued earth trine between Saturn in Capricorn and Uranus in Taurus (at 1-2 degrees), as well as the longstanding Jupiter – Pluto sextile (at 18 degrees of Scorpio + Capricorn respectively) perfecting on Tuesday, along with the separating Jupiter-Neptune trine.

    Interestingly, essentially all of the faster-moving, more personal planets (Sun, Mercury, Venus, and Mars – along with the Moon of course) are hitting degree points that activate and highlight these slower cosmic dynamics, with their deep, long-lasting, yet subtle correlations.

    It’s like children playing around giant statues; imbuing their solemn gravity with new life and perspective.

  • Cosmic Weather Bulletins,  Personal Reflections

    Saturn Stations Direct & Sun Opposite Neptune :: Time is Weightless

    Saturn stationed direct Thursday morning (September 6th) after being retrograde since April 17th.

    Saturn is about connecting with our inner authority, our deepest purpose, and living out our personal mission with integrity and determination in a difficult decaying impermanent world of time and space. Saturn is about building our most important life projects in a way that will leave a supportive legacy for those who follow.

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    Building Bridges & Boats :: Cosmic Weather Forecast for September 3rd – 9th

    This is an image of a table topper at a small cafe in the region I visited at the end of August – “You can’t cross the sea merely by standing and staring at the water.”

    Indeed.

    This week is full of strong forward-moving earth energy. Mercury joins the Sun when it enters Virgo on WEDNESDAY, quickly moving into position to complete the Grand Earth Trine with Uranus in Taurus and Saturn (newly direct as of THURSDAY) in Capricorn on FRIDAY. This grounded transit is echoed by the Moon which enters the trine formation on SATURDAY. Then there is the New Moon in Virgo taking place on SUNDAY, September 9th, cleansing us from the summer’s eclipse lunations with a new cycle, power-packed with motivating support from Pluto and Jupiter.

  • Cosmic Weather Bulletins,  Personal Reflections

    Mars Direct in Capricorn :: Slowly Building Momentum Again

    Heeeeey! I’ve missed a couple forecasts. The last one I did was August 13th, almost 3 weeks ago, before I left for a WiFi-deficient location for 12 days.

    My current lunar return chart (which encompassed most of August) showed a very strong 12th house emphasis. As it activated, I was curious how that would express in my life. It soon became clear after I spontaneously responded to an invitation to spend some time at a friend’s place by the ocean. I initially thought it was going to be only a 3-4 day trip, but gradually, in a typical go-with-the-flow Piscean/12th house way, it was extended to 12 days.

    I returned to the city under the Pisces Full Moon (on August 26th) in time for Mars to go direct the next day, in my 6th house of work and daily responsibilities. I came back to the city with new insight on what made me feel alive and full of vitality in my day-to-day life.

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    Practical Nurturing, Supportive Relationships, & the Transformative Seasons & Shapes of Love :: Cosmic Weather Forecast for August 13 -19

    In our lives there are times of abundant harvest, times of cold winter, of exuberant blossoming and of cautious contraction. As we pass through these seasons, so do our relationships – with each other, with lovers, with family, with friends, and with the circumstances of the life worlds we inhabit.

    To navigate these transient time periods with ease, is to remain open and flexible as we stand at these ever-shifting intersections between us… and everything and everyone else who meets us at our edges.